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[stimpee]

Originally Posted by negative1

anyways, my parents talked to my girlfriend,
and they like her a lot...

here's some pictures at my place of her having fun with them..
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thats always a great thing if the parents get on with your partner. i think its great youre being so open about this and i wish you the best of luck. as for the pics, wow. she's very beautiful. dont know who sasha grey is but google shows me that yeah there is a similarity...

[RoniPhD]

It's wonderful that this is happening to you. I believe all of us who have read your entries before can easily tell that you are very happy/thrilled. That's great.
Thanks for sharing, and all the best.
Bye.

[negative1]

Originally Posted by stimpee

thats always a great thing if the parents get on with your partner. i think its great youre being so open about this and i wish you the best of luck. as for the pics, wow. she's very beautiful. dont know who sasha grey is but google shows me that yeah there is a similarity...

yeah,
actually the parent thing is pretty annoying,
i'm pretty ticked at them..

i TOLD THEM NOT TO GET THEIR HOPES UP
(and yes, of course that's exactly what they did)..

i resent them pressuring me to pressure her, to make
things serious (engagement, etc).. not right now, its
way too soon..

but anyways, i kid her a lot,
and tell her secret profession was a porn star,
or spy, or other things, because she's always so
secretive (shes coming off a bad breakup with an ex)..
so i guess i can't blame her too much..

it's still aggravating though.. i'll just have to give her
time, and space to work it out..

i really didn't think this would last as long as did
(some of my old character traits coming back)..

i'm not trying to make some self-fulfilling prophecy and
make this relationship fail... but its JUST SO HARD,
i knew it would be HARD, and i'm usually a patient person..

BUT MAN IS IT TOUGH.. i guess the reward will come if
we make it through the down parts too...

sometimes i feel used, maybe sometimes i'm using her..
is that natural?

i know there can never be an even relationship, and one
person will want it more than the other.. but i don't want
to be the 'needy' guy, or the one always asking, and making
the plans.. but that's how i feel, because i have all the time
in the world, and she doesn't have much at all..........................

i don't know when that will change either.....

it didn't bother me before, because i always had things to do
on my own, but now they all feel so empty, when she's not
around......... and there are a FEW other really hot/nice/friendly
women in the wings.... i don't want to feel guilty, but my friend
said it was ok to see other women (as friends)... and i told her
if she wants to have guy friends thats OK too..

we're not commited or married, so i feel the relationship should
be as open as possible..

is that a mistake????

be seeing you
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[negative1]

awesome day today..

went for a walk in the leaves, and saw fall colors..

held on to each for a long time,

and we've had some nice long talks about our future,
and what we think is going on... i needed that.....

check her out in the red indian dress:
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http://www.flickr.com/photos/7427958...th/4083682160/

be seeing you
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[negative1]

the holidays are coming up!
looking forward to spending them with her..

we'll see how it goes.

i had the most intense weekend.. well
friday and saturday, i've ever had in my
life with her...

being close to her, and spending intimate
time, has really helped us bond together..

of course i can't go into details about this,
i think you know where this is heading..

anyways, we're trying to plan a cool photoshoot
this week, some classy bikini shots, and other
patrick 'nagel' related works.. i gave her an artbook,
and told her we could recreate a lot of poses..

its gonna be fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

be seeing you
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[stimpee]

Hey nice pics. Keep it fun. Dont think about those "FEW other really hot/nice/friendly
women in the wings". Concentrate on the here and now. Easy to get distracted. There may well be plenty more fish in the sea, but catching one, and one that meets your requirements is a nightmare. Hang on in there, this girl looks like she accepts you for who you are, and I hope you do too. I never had the internet to help me when I was making these steps...

[negative1]

Originally Posted by stimpee

Hey nice pics. Keep it fun. Dont think about those "FEW other really hot/nice/friendly
women in the wings". Concentrate on the here and now. Easy to get distracted. There may well be plenty more fish in the sea, but catching one, and one that meets your requirements is a nightmare. Hang on in there, this girl looks like she accepts you for who you are, and I hope you do too. I never had the internet to help me when I was making these steps...

you're right, i've STOPPED hanging out, and trying to
meet other girls.. (ok, there is one named simone,
and she's VERY cool, but with her, it really is just
being a friend)...

and i am trying to spend more time with her..

we've gone THROUGH A LOT.. and there are times
i'm very frustrated that we can't meet and do more things together.

it just seemed like she was making excuses constantly..

well that's changed a lot in the last few weeks, and i have
to learn how to be more accepting, and realize her school
and child/family are priorities... when she's ready to let me
into their life, i'll be happy with it..

i know its early, but i've already mentioned the idea of
her moving in with me next year at some point... lets
see what happens.. it would be a lot better for her,
if she can let go of a lot of things from her past..

thanks for the advice.. its a lot of work, but we're trying
to make both of our lives better..

be seeing you
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[negative1]

well, i've just had the most intense night of my life yesterday..

still can't breathe, and my arms and legs are shaking like crazy!!!!

sorry, no details this time...just use your imagination of what went on..


also, it looks like i've got a new mystery girl to cheat with!!!!
(check her out.. he he)..

http://www.flickr.com/photos/7427958...92632292/show/

whoahhh baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


be seeing you
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[holden]

Originally Posted by negative1

well, i've just had the most intense night of my life yesterday..

still can't breathe, and my arms and legs are shaking like crazy!!!!

Isn't that the best feeling? Like, Life is so much more than the routine events that most people take for granted. You're feeling Life deeply and that's wonderful. From someone who's been in very low, dark places as well as almost crippled with awe for the world's beauty and grace, I'd say that feeling something intense, positive or negative, is a large part of being a person, not just a casual inhabitant.

Hope the intensity remains or evolves into something continually positive and affirming

[froopy seal]

Originally Posted by negative1

well, i've just had the most intense night of my life yesterday..

still can't breathe, and my arms and legs are shaking like crazy!!!!

sorry, no details this time...just use your imagination of what went on..

Nice! Like holden said, here's hoping you two can sustain that intensity for a long time.

Originally Posted by negative1

also, it looks like i've got a new mystery girl to cheat with!!!!
(check her out.. he he)..

http://www.flickr.com/photos/7427958...92632292/show/

Hmm, she seems strangely familiar from some of your other flickr pics... Can't quite put my finger on it.

Also, two-coloured hair is sooo 00s.