[Caprice]

oh wow, strangelet, will do

its been a while since i have checked the forums, sorry you all, a lot has happened.

since i wrote out what happened, this has happened:

i moved out of my house

i told my dad i do not believe in the church anymore (he took it real good at first, then the following sunday he let it all out, again. only this time i knew it wasn't him who was fighting, it was not him. i just stared blankly, letting him get it all out, knowing that its only anger, he's still my dad. even though with what he said, it's been 2 weeks now, our relationship has gone to almost nothing. (my manager at where i work is gay, i work at a coffee shop, and we both have been talking about the many parallels that we have because both our dads disagree with what we're doing. funny, but im still awfully attracted to women.) i go over to the house at least every other day to check on my mom, who seems to be doing great. she isn't mormon, but she has her own problems that she is getting out of, i think because she can rest assured that her baby boy no longer believes in joseph smith. dad, on the other hand, avoids me with all possibility. i try to do things for him, and still be his son, but its like, he doesn't want me. i dont let it get to me i think, because im supporting myself and im applying to scholarships/financial aid and worst comes to worst, i'll apply for a loan to continue university this fall. im going to send in my resignation letter to the church soon)

ive had corona, sam adams boston lager, amber bock, budweiser, heineken, coors light (all in that order)

im saving up for a motorcycle or some other form of cheap transportation, im riding the bicycle in the mean time


ive noticed that the more that i make myself a priority, the more happier ive become. its really strange. the church would call this selfishness, but hey, im pretty happy.