[bryantm3]

i completely believe you. in the universal sense, there is a tendency in religion to stop serving God and begin to serve their own feelings of self-worth. people feel better about themselves the more they convert non-believers to their own religion, but their purpose is to make themselves feel better and claim themselves to be more worthy of God's love. it's not just mormonism, it's consistant throughout religions of the world. it's truly ridiculous that this continues to happen and experiences like this continue to turn people away from religion, when the purpose of religion is a different thing entirely; i believe it's to spread love throughout the world, whether people believe in your God or not, God still loves them.

it took a lot of gumption to write that out on here and i commend you for it. i wish you nothing but good luck in spreading the word about this. i believe that God was on your side through all your perils and that's why you didn't take the step to kill yourself. he was protecting you, and he will continue to do so.

i would write more but i'm a bit drunk and i'm also very hungry.