[Caprice]

The rest:

I turned it up the boom box but not so loud to be suspicious. I turned on the air conditioner. I locked the door. I started packing. I changed into normal clothes. I was packed in 30 minutes. The room was on the 2nd floor, but there was a window. I got the screen off and opened the window. My landing was all concrete. My only fear was that if I dropped my bags they would bust open. I got my heaviest bag up on the window sill, and I said to myself, once I drop this, its go time. Its like pressing play, and there is no going back. I dropped it and the bag did not bust. I dropped my other bags and climbed down the window thanks to bars on the window below mine. I grabbed my bags and ran for a taxi. He took me to the bus terminal and I got a bus ticket to Lexington, Kentucky for $170. I waited an hour for my bus and boarded it. I never felt more free.
The whole bus trip, I was thinking of who I could call, and who I could stay with until I found a job. Because my dad said If I came home, im cut off from everything. I left on a Saturday afternoon at 4pm and made it to Kentucky at 8:30am on Monday. My last stop was Cincinnati before Lexington. Before I left, I thought I would call my mom. Because my mom threatened to divorce my dad over forcing me to stay in mexico. Because she is not a member of the church. I called my house to tell her what time I would be getting to Lexington. My dad answered and his whole tone had changed with me. I told him what time I would arrive and he said they would pick me up. I was shocked, but I said ok. I greeted them and they took me to eat. And then home.

Since then. Its still been a ride. But I have never felt more in control of my life. And with that. I have never felt more free. The thought of mortal men having control over me, and what I did scared me. It scared me so much that I ran. Because it was something I never wanted. All along the way, the Seventy himself, none of them did it how I saw that Jesus would. There was almost, a Universal absence of Love. I am home, I am living, and I am so happy that I. The way my mother puts it, I woke up.


There, there it all is. Since then I have read into the history of the church from material not endorsed by the church. Because the church discourages its members from reading un-approved material about the church. So the members, people that I used to be, we never know the true history of what we are believing.

There is much more I can tell on what I have gone through since I've been home, but there is what happened. And that is truly, what happened. I did not make that up. I did not want to let this out because I did not want to harm the church. But after reading and studying, I know that sometimes even staying silent is lying.


there dirties, that is me, that is josh