[holden]

Hey Caprice,

So sorry to hear some of the details of your situation. That sounds like such a blindside to you. I'm sure everyone has a case of unrequited love, which sucks, but usually is clearly one-sided. but in your case, you were deeply invested and it appeared to be a mutual relationship. Afaikt, she's either being scared or selfish. No offense to her. But you shouldn't feel sick about yourself...it wasn't as though you were imagining things, she was clearly sending the signals.
I hope you can take some pride in expressing to her how you feel and despite the reactions of you both, you have both learned something fundamental about each other. It may be the tie that binds you stronger together. Or if not, it's better to find out now than years down the road.

-holden