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Originally Posted by Caprice
i think ive lost all confidence in myself after what happened as well. what happened is a very long story, and me, and religion. i dont think the smoke with ever clear. maybe in 15 years or so. and today! or yesterday rather. my girlfriend right? well, we never had the title of boyfriend/girlfriend. we were friends, and we became closer, and closer, and closer, until finally, we ended up just doing what boyfriends and girlfriends do together without having the title, even the physical part so you all know im not just, exaggerating. i asked her yesterday for the title. i wanted to be her actual boyfriend, i wanted us to be an actual couple. without hesitation she says its best if we stayed friends. she was almost, enthusiastic about it. i bursted into tears, because every person i apparently let into my life, i get close to. they end up giving me the raw end and throwing me through a loop.
im so sick right now with myself
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Wow, that is truly shitty. When you thought your relationship was a certain way, whether is was spoken or unspoken, with or without the title, and found out she didn't think of it that way is truely aweful. I would feel exactly the same way. I think it's the "afraid of commitment" thing. She doesn't seem to like the idea of being attached for some reason, which is something that she needs to work out for herself. She obviously has
something for you that's more than a friendship. Her actions of the last whatever months/years prove that. There just seems to be something keeping her from feeling comfortable saying that you're "together". Of course I don't have much serious relationship experience, so I can't say I'm an expert.