Re: _positive_1_
 

well, she's starting school next week!!

we are having a blast this weekend, just doing crazy stuff..

(oh, and i met her youngest sister, (19!), another hot girl to talk with !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! )
<when it rains it pours>


playing 'tag', hanging out.... just being together before school
starts. but she still wants to work in time during school..

so lets see how that goes... i can't wait......... she's a lot
smarter than me, so it will be challenging to keep up with her,
and help her study, and discuss a lot of cool topics..

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

Hey good luck with this man, continue to take it slow and see how it goes is all i can say.

But you seem so happy and thats great!

Re: _positive_1_
 

thank you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes, i'm incredibly happy (although i wonder
how long its going to last)??????

is this what its like going through it for the first time????

i've NEVER had a girlfriend before, so everything is unbeliveably
exciting... even little things mean a lot...

she suprised me yesterday, and bought me groceries, and
wants to make dinner for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow..

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

so we're still hanging out together..

its weird how even doing small things
seem a lot better now..

everytime we go out to eat,
we just end up talking, and never
quite eating...

going out for ice cream was a lot of fun... messy!!! ha ha...

i'm looking forward to some holiday time,
and maybe we'll start travelling together..

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

well, we had lunch today !!!

and OH MY GOD!!!

after we were leaving, and she had to
go back home, we kissed for the first time ever!!!!

(yes, its my first time kissing a girl on the lips) !!!!!!

wow !!!!!!!!!!!!!

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

Good on you! I hope it works for you.

And if another guy says anything about the age difference, know that they are just dying of envy.

Re: _positive_1_
 

thanks..

well, i know things will never be perfect,
and you won't always get along..

i'll be realistic in realizing for what this is..

i'm just saying it's a great experience, and
if it goes somewhere excellent..

life is way to short, not to experience something with
another person.

whether it lasts or not is another story..

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

hey, even if it doesn't work out, i hope this gives you the confidence to go out and find more girls!
good luck.

Re: _positive_1_
 

oh don't worry, there are OTHER girls too!!!

SHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm just talking to them, but yes,
the confidence and self-esteem factor
is doing a lot better nowadays..

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

OH THE DRAMA..

turns out my friend has a 2 year old son,
that she was scared to mention..

i found out through some other friends, and
confronted her about it...

well, she came clean, and admitted it... i told
her, it was ok (i had actually met him before,
when she told me it was a nephew).

yes, everyone has a past (even me), but i'm not
going to stop seeing her..and yes it hurts, being
lied to.... but i did the same thing to her, by keep
the relationship secret for quite some time, so i'm
not that innocent either..

and there's also a jealous ex in the picture!!!!

seriously, either this is a soap opera, or a new series
on the CW network....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can't wait to see what happens next !!!!!!!!!!!!

she's going to come over this friday,
and hang out... who knows what we're going to do !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stay tuned .............
same battime, same batchannel...

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

I surely am.

Re: _positive_1_
 

WHOAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

she came over friday night at 2am...

we had a really quiet intimate night...
watched the 'girlfriend experience'...which she really liked..

and yes, she does look like the porn star 'sasha grey', we joke
about that a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lots of holding, cuddling, and squeezing going on...that's it, i swear!

i didn't want her go.....and we kept holding each other outside at
her car for about 15minutes, before she left in the dark..around 5am..

--------------
she came back on saturday, and we had a nice picnic, the weather
was sunny and warm...........we went to a park with her son....and
we swung on the swings, played tag with each other, and just held
hands and walked down a pathway near a creek.....

beautiful days go by..........................

looking forward to the upcoming week !!!!!!!!!!!!!

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

another friday comes again !!! she's coming over,
and its 2:47am...(technically its saturday)

whats up this time?

i hear a knock on my door..
my heart beats louder, i know its her !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well, it was a little chilly outside/and raining..

so, she comes inside... and i notice she's wearing a jacket.
and we're in my bedroom just sitting on my futon/bed...

well i ask her if she wants to take it off..and get comfortable..
she unzips it a bit...i see some skin..

she says, well, actually, i'm only wearing a bra !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHOAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok, its not like i haven't seen her body before..

but WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

she takes the jacket off !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..........

lights out....................................


be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

so does she know you're like posting all this on the intarwebs?

just asking...

Re: _positive_1_
 

no,she doesn't use the internet....

why? should i not be sharing?

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

well i was half-kidding really but you are posting some pretty private stuff for all the world to read.
Even if she does not use the internet she might not be thrilled about the fact that you're posting descriptions of her sexual advances on a public forum.

But hey I like some juicy reading as much as the next guy... ;)

Re: _positive_1_
 

oh please, its like family here..and besides i need all the help
i can get..

i've never dated before, so this is all new to me!

also, this is pretty much pg-rated, and maybe even pg-13,
hardly what i'd call exciting !!! (i'll spare you from the r and x-rated stuff
ha ha!!!)..

anyways, i'm still a virgin, and will wait until i'm married (if ever),
so there's no chance of sex or anything like that going on...

so i wouldn't worry too much about racy/private stuff !!!!
it's mostly teasing and flirting though...

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

went to houston last weekend for a wedding..

I HATE WEDDINGS!! they are so depressing..

anyways, i've known the bride since she was 8..
she has been hot all her life.. and shes 34 now,
and still hot....she has an older sister thats hot
also.. i was supposed to hook up with her a long
time ago, but it never worked out.. oh well..
maybe i'll post pics of her later..

anyways, my parents talked to my girlfriend,
and they like her a lot... more than me! figures..

anyways, we got her some cool stuff, fancy chocolates,
a necklace, and jewelery box, and a fancy red dress (indian style)
with a scarf..

here's some pictures at my place of her having fun with them..

don't worry, they're safe for work !!!

http://www.flickr.com/photos/7427958...th/4034526082/

it was a fun night, and she really liked the stuff.
she's into heart shaped figures...

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

well,

she wants to do a nice modeling/shoot with the red dress,
and maybe some bikini pics!

ok i won't post the bikini pics.. but she does have a really nice
tatoo on her lower back... mmmmmmmmmmmmm..................

post a pic? yes/no?????

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

well,

halloween's coming up..

GOD NO, i'm not dressing up..
but of course she is!!! a nice schoolgirl outfit i think..

yeah, i'm a sad old man....but i CANT HELP IT!

its still HOT!!!!!!!!!!


be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

thats always a great thing if the parents get on with your partner. i think its great youre being so open about this and i wish you the best of luck. as for the pics, wow. she's very beautiful. dont know who sasha grey is but google shows me that yeah there is a similarity...

Re: _positive_1_
 

It's wonderful that this is happening to you. I believe all of us who have read your entries before can easily tell that you are very happy/thrilled. That's great.
Thanks for sharing, and all the best.
Bye.

Re: _positive_1_
 

yeah,
actually the parent thing is pretty annoying,
i'm pretty ticked at them..

i TOLD THEM NOT TO GET THEIR HOPES UP
(and yes, of course that's exactly what they did)..

i resent them pressuring me to pressure her, to make
things serious (engagement, etc).. not right now, its
way too soon..

but anyways, i kid her a lot,
and tell her secret profession was a porn star,
or spy, or other things, because she's always so
secretive (shes coming off a bad breakup with an ex)..
so i guess i can't blame her too much..

it's still aggravating though.. i'll just have to give her
time, and space to work it out..

i really didn't think this would last as long as did
(some of my old character traits coming back)..

i'm not trying to make some self-fulfilling prophecy and
make this relationship fail... but its JUST SO HARD,
i knew it would be HARD, and i'm usually a patient person..

BUT MAN IS IT TOUGH.. i guess the reward will come if
we make it through the down parts too...

sometimes i feel used, maybe sometimes i'm using her..
is that natural?

i know there can never be an even relationship, and one
person will want it more than the other.. but i don't want
to be the 'needy' guy, or the one always asking, and making
the plans.. but that's how i feel, because i have all the time
in the world, and she doesn't have much at all..........................

i don't know when that will change either.....

it didn't bother me before, because i always had things to do
on my own, but now they all feel so empty, when she's not
around......... and there are a FEW other really hot/nice/friendly
women in the wings.... i don't want to feel guilty, but my friend
said it was ok to see other women (as friends)... and i told her
if she wants to have guy friends thats OK too..

we're not commited or married, so i feel the relationship should
be as open as possible..

is that a mistake????

be seeing you
+1

Re: _positive_1_
 

awesome day today..

went for a walk in the leaves, and saw fall colors..

held on to each for a long time,

and we've had some nice long talks about our future,
and what we think is going on... i needed that.....

check her out in the red indian dress:
============================
http://www.flickr.com/photos/7427958...th/4083682160/

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

the holidays are coming up!
looking forward to spending them with her..

we'll see how it goes.

i had the most intense weekend.. well
friday and saturday, i've ever had in my
life with her...

being close to her, and spending intimate
time, has really helped us bond together..

of course i can't go into details about this,
i think you know where this is heading..

anyways, we're trying to plan a cool photoshoot
this week, some classy bikini shots, and other
patrick 'nagel' related works.. i gave her an artbook,
and told her we could recreate a lot of poses..

its gonna be fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

Hey nice pics. Keep it fun. Dont think about those "FEW other really hot/nice/friendly
women in the wings". Concentrate on the here and now. Easy to get distracted. There may well be plenty more fish in the sea, but catching one, and one that meets your requirements is a nightmare. Hang on in there, this girl looks like she accepts you for who you are, and I hope you do too. I never had the internet to help me when I was making these steps...

Re: _positive_1_
 

you're right, i've STOPPED hanging out, and trying to
meet other girls.. (ok, there is one named simone,
and she's VERY cool, but with her, it really is just
being a friend)...

and i am trying to spend more time with her..

we've gone THROUGH A LOT.. and there are times
i'm very frustrated that we can't meet and do more things together.

it just seemed like she was making excuses constantly..

well that's changed a lot in the last few weeks, and i have
to learn how to be more accepting, and realize her school
and child/family are priorities... when she's ready to let me
into their life, i'll be happy with it..

i know its early, but i've already mentioned the idea of
her moving in with me next year at some point... lets
see what happens.. it would be a lot better for her,
if she can let go of a lot of things from her past..

thanks for the advice.. its a lot of work, but we're trying
to make both of our lives better..

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

well, i've just had the most intense night of my life yesterday..

still can't breathe, and my arms and legs are shaking like crazy!!!!

sorry, no details this time...just use your imagination of what went on..


also, it looks like i've got a new mystery girl to cheat with!!!!
(check her out.. he he)..

http://www.flickr.com/photos/7427958...92632292/show/

whoahhh baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

Isn't that the best feeling? Like, Life is so much more than the routine events that most people take for granted. You're feeling Life deeply and that's wonderful. From someone who's been in very low, dark places as well as almost crippled with awe for the world's beauty and grace, I'd say that feeling something intense, positive or negative, is a large part of being a person, not just a casual inhabitant.

Hope the intensity remains or evolves into something continually positive and affirming :)

Re: _positive_1_
 

Nice! Like holden said, here's hoping you two can sustain that intensity for a long time.

Hmm, she seems strangely familiar from some of your other flickr pics... Can't quite put my finger on it.

Also, two-coloured hair is sooo 00s. ;)

Re: _positive_1_
 

thanks guys for the kind words..

WELL tonight is a BIG NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!

it's been longer than 6 months... but we're going
to celebrate it anyway..

i went jewelry shopping with her last week, and we
picked out a nice diamond double heart shaped necklace..

i ordered it later, and tonight we're going out to dinner
at a fancy restaurant, and i'll give it to her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then the rest of the night is ours, to be close to each other..
(REALLY CLOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh... i'll take a few pics at dinner, i'm sure she'll
wear something stunning !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

well,
the big night came and went..

and what a night!!!

dinner at a fancy italian restaurant,
she was a little late getting ready..needed
to wait for a babysitter..no big deal..

we had dinner, and then at the end during dessert,
i brought out the box with the diamond heart necklace!!

she was so thrilled !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and what a night after that !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(sorry no details, you know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

pics coming very soon...

later
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Re: _positive_1_
 

alright dude. . its coming up on 5 months. . is this it? is she the one?

next piece of jewelry better be a ring, goddamit!

Re: _positive_1_
 

honestly, i don't know yet!!!

she's coming off a divorce from earlier this year..so
she's not ready again yet..

i'm pretty old, and don't REALLY want to get married right now,
and i'm not sure she's looking yet either..

we're having a lot of fun, and i really need to get used
to her, and her son....

i think there's 2 1/2 more years of school left for her..

if we make it another year (right???), THEN i might see
if she's ready to get engaged..

yeah, that's a long time.. but i'm pretty sure she doesn't
want to get REALLY serious for awhile...

i'm falling pretty hard for her.. but is my first girlfriend
really going to be my last also?????

be seeing you
+1

Re: _positive_1_
 

so last friday night,
we spend the evening together..

very close and comfortable..just relaxed the whole
night.

funny games, massages, back rubs and karaoke!!! at my place.. ok we
didn't really sing to much..

old 70's and 80s songs shes never heard of:
that had words that i wanted her to hear..
-------------------------------------------
u2 - the unforgetable fire
missing persons - give
prefab sprout - appetite

and we did a funny duet, which i've always wanted
to do with a woman:
------
elton john and kiki dee - don't go breakin my heart

and ended with a soft country song

firefall - just remember i love you
-------------------

we fell into each other arms for the rest of the night
until she left in the cold and snow falling.........

tomorrows another day..

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

i think its almost time for this topic to end..

what else is left?

maybe we'll stay together or not?

i might have to move because of my job situation..
but its a GOOD thing..

the time we had, and shared together were amazing..

is there a future? maybe? maybe not..

but now i have the confidence, and the courage to move on..
and to see what else i might find..

this has been the most exciting time of my life..

i know it had it ups and downs.. but i wouldn't have
done it any differently.. even knowing what i know now...

love is a great adventure...

experience it..

be seeing you
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Re: _positive_1_
 

Is it over?

Re: _positive_1_
 

damn karaoke

Re: _positive_1_
 

A man to ask the uncomfortable, yet unavoidable questions. Sooooo... is it over? [/gawk]

Re: _positive_1_
 

hey, i'm a big fan of closure!!!
so of course i'll tell you what happens..

i think its over..

thanks to facebook, and it changing privacy settings,
i was able to find out some more information she was
keeping from me..

well we were supposed to meet today, but a snowstorm
put a stop to that..

when i see her again, i'll just ask her some questions to
see if she's telling the truth..

if not.. its bye-bye...and time for me to move on..

if she does confess, there might be a chance,
but not much...

i need to find someone that is more trusting..
so i don't get used...

dont get me wrong, we had GREAT times together,
but things could get complicated real fast if we
don't sort things out! and i don't really need to deal
with that right now.

later
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