another year goes by...now what?

[negative1]

... and another birthday comes around..
yeah, another year for me...

i usually don't celebrate it.. and in fact
i took the last year 'off'... didn't feel like
working, or going out, or meeting people..
was just tired of everything.. work, girlfriend,
etc..

yeah, i made it to a few concerts, and this
year.. i slowly realized i would have to somehow
try to get back to society... although i do like the
idea of a 'non-linear' lifestyle, waking up when i feel
like it,eating whenever..etc..in fact, i'm usually asleep
all day, and just wake up at nights..

slowly i've started living a secluded lifestyle.. in the
dark. never opening the windows..keeping the windows darkened..
i used to have to go the bank once every couple of weeks,
but thats not an issue now.. the only thing i need is food..
that's it..i don't really have any friends or relatives nearby,
and i don't really call anyone, except my brother once in
awhile..

i brought a ton of my stuff out of storage last year, and was
going to sort it all out, digitize my music/movies/books/etc..
and i've been staring at it for 9 months now.. and only NOW
am i getting around to doing something about it..

i almost just want to get rid of everything.. i have too much stuff.
i got rid of a lot of clothes, gave away a whole bunch of old videogames
and books/laserdiscs...

getting old makes me realize how tiring it was getting everything
i thought i wanted....i guess i need new goals now...its not like
i need anything material...

and of course, what else happens the one time i decided to go out
in the winter? i met someone! of course she's a really nice person..
21... is a student, and works as a model in her spare time.. we talk
and text each other, and i feel like she's the only person that is
actually willing to talk to me, hang out, and inspire me..

http://ramonastalent.com/image/photos/AshleyWilson3Large.jpg

funny when you aren't looking for something, and someone comes
along and blows away your expectations... again, i have no idea
what's going to happen, and where things are going to go.. or if
i'm even going to live in the same place (was considering packing
up and heading back to texas)...she sure is making me reconsider
a lot of things, i never used to think about before..

should be an interesting year, and maybe it's time
to return to civilization.. or maybe not.. we'll see..

later
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[BrotherLovesDub]

Hey Raj,

Happy Birthday. Today is my Mom's birthday too. She's a bit of a recluse in her old age and I definitely see it taking a toll on her overall happiness and mental welfare. You're a great guy with a lot to give so i'm going to make this short. Get out. Join a community group. Volunteer. You can make a difference helping out and you'll feel better for it. Nothing good will come of you continuing to shy away and turn inward.

Good Luck and Have a great year this year.

[negative1]

Hey Raj,

Happy Birthday. Today is my Mom's birthday too. She's a bit of a recluse in her old age and I definitely see it taking a toll on her overall happiness and mental welfare. You're a great guy with a lot to give so i'm going to make this short. Get out. Join a community group. Volunteer. You can make a difference helping out and you'll feel better for it. Nothing good will come of you continuing to shy away and turn inward.

Good Luck and Have a great year this year.

yeah, thanks..
good advice..

i used be really active, invvolved with church groups,
did all that for quite some time..in fact it was really
enjoyable, and i met people and had a really good social life..

for some reason, i don't know if i ever really 'fit in', though..
just became more introspective..as time passed..

maybe i've always been anti-social, and was just
forcing myself to conform?

i always had projects and things in the past to keep me
busy.. but i think my lack of fulfillment with jobs/plans/
relationships always made me rethink what i wanted..

i was always a completist, and semi-perfectionist (if that's
possible)..and i think the lack of not being able to finish the
major things i wanted to do led to this state.

i guess it's easier to lead a 'virtual' life.. although i don't
do social networks/gaming online/etc etc..so i'm kind of
old fashioned that way... i also find it interesting that people
i know don't talk much anymore.. just text...

i don't want to place all my social activities on one person..
that would be overwhelming...but i am going to make an
effort to get back out into the world again.. i'll deal with
my other dissatisfaction separately..

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[stimpee]

Hey raj, birthday? well hope its a good one. your completist attitude here is very welcome sir. however, in real life out and about being competist isnt always an advantage. i hope you can let go enough to relax and be more out going. was good to hear of your exploits last year with the lady. even though it didnt work out it sounded like the experience did you a lot of good. was great to get the updates and experience these things with you.

[negative1]

Hey raj, birthday? well hope its a good one. your completist attitude here is very welcome sir. however, in real life out and about being competist isnt always an advantage. i hope you can let go enough to relax and be more out going. was good to hear of your exploits last year with the lady. even though it didnt work out it sounded like the experience did you a lot of good. was great to get the updates and experience these things with you.

you remember that? it was pretty crazy going through all that!
yeah, i'm much more somber, and serious now for some reason..

in some ways it was overwhelming going through so much stuff
all at once.. especially for someone that's never been in a relationship
before..

i've met other women in the meantime, and it's always been a wild
adventure to say the least..

this time, i'm taking things a little slower... but i'm sure it will surprise
me, just like everything else seems to! ... in fact i'll be doing a photo
shoot with my new friend this week.. should be a lot of fun.. and i do
need to get outside again!

i guess everyone needs some time for introspection.. but when you
get older, having some stabiilty and some structure might be a good
thing for me to have.. i'm just not psychologically ready to accept that
for some reason that i haven't figured out..

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[Andrea]

well, the circles are still hunting me… apropos being - or not being - psychologically ready for the whatever that is imposing

art that is providing food for thought is like having sex
that later grows to a love affair, then to a relationship and later to a marriage
kinda progress :D
nothing serious, just a conference at the hotel Renaissance in Amsterdam last Monday…

diamonds out of circles, black coffee out of the laptop

http://a3.l3-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/139/f1bd6139514341cdafd990224183942c/l.jpg

and it felt almost like I found my soul mate, I felt marriage

http://a3.l3-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/132/0684fd19eb6044239ac908267e4d7451/l.jpg

with three birds in the house...

http://a3.l3-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/136/32923160fe8644dd8dcd2f26361093fa/l.jpg

and another year goes by...

goddamn
I should consider the matter...

[negative1]

well, the circles are still hunting me… apropos being - or not being - psychologically ready for the whatever that is imposing

art that is providing food for thought is like having sex
that later grows to a love affair, then to a relationship and later to a marriage
kinda progress :D
nothing serious, just a conference at the hotel Renaissance in Amsterdam last Monday…

and another year goes by...

goddamn
I should consider the matter...

very cool,
thanks for sharing..

well got back from a very dreamy time at a park
with my friend.. we had a lot of fun, taking pictures
and catching up..

i'll post a link to some of them once they're up..
(give me a break, i'm just an amateur)..
http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5027/5600127713_6ea865c5e0.jpg
--------------------------------------------------------------------
http://www.borndirty.org/forums/showpost.php?p=149985&postcount=134

all i know is that i wish time would stand still
longer when i'm with her, and that she makes
all my fears disappear...yeah, i'll still have
insecurities, but when i'm with her they don't
matter at all...

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[Andrea]

very cool,
thanks for sharing..


thank you for saying that!
some people would rather say I´m crazy you know :)

[negative1]

thank you for saying that!
some people would rather say I´m crazy you know :)

well, i wouldn't know if you were crazy!

but, i'm pretty sure i am! (or at least i
think that's what other people think of me!)

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[stimpee]

all i know is that i wish time would stand still longer when i'm with her, and that she makes all my fears disappear...yeah, i'll still have insecurities, but when i'm with her they don't matter at all...

later
-1Thats a nice feeling. I hope youve learned from your previous experiences (and our wonderful advice...erm right?). You have a talent for meeting beautiful women it seems. Why cant we all meet models on the one night we decide to go out? :p

[negative1]

Thats a nice feeling. I hope youve learned from your previous experiences (and our wonderful advice...erm right?). You have a talent for meeting beautiful women it seems. Why cant we all meet models on the one night we decide to go out? :p

advice is hard to take sometimes, especially when your heart says one
thing, and your mind says another!

also, if a person wants to mislead you, it's hard to know what's going on
unless they really want tell you the truth...so you end up getting hurt even
though you didn't mean for it to be that way.... well enough of the past..

i know nobody's asking, because most people i meet have a lot more
experience than i do... but i think it's interesting for me too look back..

SOME OBSERVATIONS:
===================
this is probably going to be long (as i usually go on), and might
not make complete sense right away.. but i have noticed a few things..

about me: when i was in high school, and college (a long time ago,
like 2 decades!).... i never went out, never had dates, didn't go to
parties, etc..[also didn't smoke/drink/etc..nothing wrong with that,
i just never picked up those habits..although i do have the
occasional drink now!]...so i spent a lot of time just observing people,
in fact i still like to watch other peoples behaviour more than interacting with them...
i also spent a lot of time reading, listening to music, watching movies, and doing
computer/videogame related stuff.. i always had a lot of hobbies and interests to
keep me preoccupied..

anyways, i ALWAYS wanted to meet women, and have dates/relationships etc.
but since i was brought up with a very strict conservative background (i'm indian,
and my parents had an arranged marriage)..so i never really had a chance to
act on going out (i probably should have)... well as you can imagine i never was
able to develop a social life (unless it was with other guys who had the same interests)..

i was always the organized/analytical type too.. everything was nicely planned
out, grades were good.. i thought i had it made, and would become just another
cog in the daily life that people had... get married, settle down, kids etc.. WELL
I COULDN'T HAVE BEEN MORE WRONG!

in fact, once i graduated, i never did settle into one thing.. i never did meet one
person, etc.. the more i planned out things the more things never went the way
i thought they would..

with women, sometimes i tried too hard.. sometimes i didn't try hard enough..
eventually every girl i met always was 'taken', or had someone.... a few hundred
times later... i got it and gave up... of course, just because someone is in a
relationship, doesn't mean its going to go on forever.. but i never had the patience
and was too concerned about doing things properly...

pretty soon, i became more relaxed, and just realized it was better to have
women as friends, and that's how it's been ever since...i end up having a lot
more women friends (casual) than guy friends.. at work, going out, anytime..
i just 'click' better with women for some reason.. yes, on occasion i can make
friends with guys.. but not too often..maybe because i don't 'hit' on them like
other guys, or act in ways that make them feel uncomfortable, or rude/gross
etc..i treat them special, but am always courteous, open-minded, and defer
to them..maybe i'm old fashioned, but i also prefer more personal contact,
that just texting/emailing/social online stuff (although i have learned to live with
texting)..i will only call someone if they are ok with it, and are free to talk..

i'm average looking (i think), have slightly long hair, am in pretty good shape,
wear decent clothes (upgraded my wardrobe a year ago)..and people tell me
i look and act much younger than my mid 40's! so it's probably an attitude thing..
i always try to be friendly, approachable, and sarcastic/humorous.. i also
seem to have a lot more interests in common with younger people, and
i don't talk about career/money/cars/stocks/material stuff etc. like i hear
a lot of other guys bragging about...(although stability is important at times)..

most of the time women approach me, and start talking to me first
(and most regret it later - ha ha!)...in fact with my current friend, it was
exactly like that.. she saw me, and decided to start the conversation..
in my mind, i would have NEVER thought about talking to her, because
i would have been intimidated.. but she has a nice outgoing personality,
and talks pretty freely, so it worked out...

as you can guess, i like conversations (and no, they don't all have to be
about deep, complicated issues)..so talking and LISTENING have always
helped me out..i know everyone's unique.. but i have a different perspective
on a lot of things.. art/music/culture/society/etc.. so there's a lways a lot
to talk about..and i love to find out about peoples interests, and their lives,
so i am very inquisitive, but not too obtrusive or get too personal..

the things i think that some women appreciate:
--------------------------
be honest/sincere.. about your age, what you do, your status.. you don't have
to tell every little detail about your life, but about the major things..
are you married/divorced/have kids, etc? i've met all kinds, and sometimes
they don't tell me those things! you would be surprised! if you're looking
for more than a friendship, you need to know that they are single!
also, you don't have to flatter someone constantly, and if you do,
you had better mean it.. otherwise it gets old, and tiring..acting
phony will only make you look bad once your real personality shows.

have respect.. i know some guys come off strong, hit on a girl, get their
number, use them, lie etc.. i can't do any of that...it's just not me.. i NEVER
ask them for their number/contact.. until they trust me.. if they want my
number, i give it out.. i usually let them dictate how things go, because i'm
not the most experienced.. i know when to take the lead and make suggestions
to.. .otherwise you end up being used/doormat etc.. and that's happened to me
a lot (just being too nice unfortunately)...

learn to communicate/interact .. easier said than done, you still have to be able
to figure out when to say something, and when not too.. and yes it would
be easy for me to hang out with someone, and overdo it with all the time
on my hands.. so i've learned to be patient, and let things evolve, and not
push for doing things all the time .. i do have a lot of ideas/inspirations/projects, to make
our meeting seem fun/casual/interesting.. but it's a lot of work! but worth it too
me... sure, women know they are beautiful, or get compliments.. but you can
still tell them, or show them in different ways.. HONESTLY, looks can get
your attention, but if they don't have a personality/intelligence it might not
last that long..i know with my friend, her personality is just as attractive as
her looks..

trust .. i can't tell you how important this is.. without this, and the other things
i mentioned.. you really won't get far. until someone can trust you, you won't
make any progress in the friendship/relationship.. and yes it has to be earned..
there were a lot of times i could have taken advantage of another person, but
i didn't because i knew it would have been wrong... don't cheat on someone,
don't hide things, don't mislead someone..you need to make your intentions
clear or things will quickly disintegrate and come back against you..
----------------

nowadays, i don't really try to plan too much about the future..
or what i will end up doing and how..i've been very fortunate when it comes
to money/jobs/travel, and meeting people..
although yes, i've been used/hurt/and had issues, it's all a part of the learning experience..

every women i have met is amazing, and interesting in some way,
you just have to make them understand, and feel that way, and if they can
do that for you.. then you'll have a much more fulfilling time with your life,
and theirs..

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[Andrea]

beautiful!
sounds almost computer generated :)

your girlfriend has got a nice partner so it seems
I wish you a happy marriage!

[negative1]

beautiful!
sounds almost computer generated :)

your girlfriend has got a nice partner so it seems
I wish you a happy marriage!

no, i don't usually bring up the 'm' word for
a long long time..

it tends to scare women away..(especially
the younger ones, and a few older ones too!)

actually, i think marriage is kind of an outdated
institution, but that's a whole different discussion!

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[negative1]

well, time has been going by,
and it's been going great..

i'm starting to get out more..
even saw sunlight a few more times..

i've been taking a lot of video at night
for projects (look for some with underworld
fan mixes)..

also, tommorrow will be a BIG day.. we're
going to a very cool science institute that
has nice futuristic, modern glass and steel
architecture! and we are going to be dressed
in some high style (well she is!)...

can't wait to see how it turns out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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[stimpee]

no, i don't usually bring up the 'm' word for
a long long time..

it tends to scare women away..(especially
the younger ones, and a few older ones too!)

actually, i think marriage is kind of an outdated
instituion, but that's a whole different discussion!

later
-1one step at a time!

[negative1]

one step at a time!

tell me about it! .. it's hard though, especially when
she's looking like this (teaser shot):
=======================================
http://img405.imageshack.us/img405/3451/img5143cr01.jpg

there's a lot more, but i'll eventually post
some links in the process section..

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[Andrea]

hmm... so no sex before marriage eh?:D
however it looks like she is much appreciated



sorry if I´m totally off topic but I can´t help thinking about Karl´s pain.tings right now
Wondering how to Live Horny on Half the Money
http://www.underworldlive.com/art/viewgallery.asp?DID=847
Lo-Fi in the Mornin
http://www.underworldlive.com/art/viewgallery.asp?DID=1268

and one of my favourites
Im Running in Circles
http://www.underworldlive.com/art/viewgallery.asp?DID=844

no, i don't usually bring up the 'm' word for
a long long time..

it tends to scare women away..

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tell me about it!... :)

[negative1]

andrea,

i'll get back to you on some more thoughts about
what you said..

stimpee.. check out the video i made with her under craft,
i think you'll enjoy it..
======================
http://www.borndirty.org/forums/showthread.php?p=150163#post150163

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[Andrea]

She is indeed beautiful and probably makes every average woman feel worthless.:)
Now I understand what you mean when you say your fears and insecurities don't matter at al when you´re with her.

anyway

I was at least sweet when I was one-year-old :D
http://www.borndirty.org/forums/picture.php?albumid=9&pictureid=108

[negative1]

hmm... so no sex before marriage eh?:D
however it looks like she is much appreciated

tell me about it!... :)

well i have a very conservative background.
but theres still a lot of fun things you can still do!

oh,and here's the update to 100 more
reasons for her..
----------------------------
http://www.borndirty.org/forums/showpost.php?p=150275&postcount=141

http://farm6.static.flickr.com/5302/5690376548_f9145a4283_z.jpg

marriage seems to be more of a contrived
social convention due to religious reasons.
i really dont see the appeal or merit of it
in current society.

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[Andrea]

well i have a very conservative background.
but theres still a lot of fun things you can still do!

oh,and here's the update to 100 more
reasons for her..
----------------------------

later
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all right, just don´t go into details how her lipstick tastes :)

[froopy seal]

marriage seems to be more of a contrived
social convention due to religious reasons.
i really dont see the appeal or merit of it
in current society.
Some people might like the "closing a deal" aspect. Legally, marriage ensures to have certain access rights or privileges should the partner die or fall ill (with all positive and negative implications).

The majority, of course, just ask themselves, a few years into the relationship, "We're already living together in one apartment, so why not take the massive tax bonuses as well?"

[negative1]

all right, just don´t go into details how her lipstick tastes :)

fine, but there are other tasty things!
shhhhhhhhhh..............

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[negative1]

Some people might like the "closing a deal" aspect. Legally, marriage ensures to have certain access rights or privileges should the partner die or fall ill (with all positive and negative implications).

The majority, of course, just ask themselves, a few years into the relationship, "We're already living together in one apartment, so why not take the massive tax bonuses as well?"

i'm aware of the social and financial aspects too..
in fact as far as psychological things go..
i'm big on closure...

so i'm kinda torn with the traditional mindset, and being
unconventional..(although if i ever get to the point, i'm sure
the woman in question will make the major decision for me)....

think about it, how long has marriage really been around for?
well there's some background here:
=========================
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marriage

(probably way too much)... but the one thing i've noticed
is that it has evolved.. and in western culture, i don't think
there is a pronounced emphasis on it, in the last century..

divorce on the other hand:
-------------------------------------
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Divorce

(again, a long read)... probably has been around just as long..
and the rates at which they happen are going to keep increasing
from the looks of it....

so if culture makes it so easy to divorce, why go through
the hassle of getting married if you don't mean it?

either make it a lot harder to get married, and/or make it harder
to get divorced... if i'm getting into it, it's only going to be one
time for life.. (well, with whatever time i have left)...

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[negative1]

so i've decided to start working again soon..
yes, and look for a job.. why not? it will
give me something to do.. and get back
into a somewhat regular schedule..

but where? around here? some other place?
i have no idea..... i do have some leads, that
are around me, so maybe that will work out....

------------------------------------------
yes, i'm still seeing my friend...
we've gone out more lately, and it's
always fascinating.. what she wears,
what we talk about, and what we plan
to do in the future.....

however, i have to figure out something if
i do decide to leave.. ouch, that will be tough..

then again???
========================================
i HATE going to the mall for shopping... which is why i
haven't been to one in a few years... i do almost all my
non-food shopping online (amazon, ebay, etc)....

so the other day, i had to go help a guy friend drop off
a rental car.. we had been out of town, and flew in
to a different city, and drove the car back to our town,
but the office was closed..

so i go to the mall, and knowing that my friend smokes,
i see a booth for e-cigarettes... no-ones around, or at least
i thought so.....so i am checking out the details, and then
she comes over...

'hi - can i help you?' ... she says.. well just my LUCK,
another beautiful girl to talk too ?! ... turns out she's an
ex-smoker (does e-cigs now)..20 something (i think)
funny, talented (sings in her spare time)...

i think a half hour went by with us talking about life,
habits, jokes, and everything else... yikes, i realize i
have to be somewhere else.. so i tell her i have to go,
oh well.. i'll be back later i tell her..

i did go back and talk to her briefly, but she was busy
on the phone.. she looks at me, and says wait.. i tell
her its ok, and she should keep talking to her boyfriend(jokingly)..
she laughs..

funny thing is, i KNOW i'm going to see her again..
why? because i'm going to start smoking now! (just kidding)..

why me ?!!?

it figures.. ok, back to my dark cave for now..

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[stimpee]

I hate going to the mall too. youre not alone there. but getting a job and getting out there will hopefully lead to more good things!

[negative1]

well life is still going on pretty quietly.
although i've been travelling like crazy.
went down to memphis by car TWICE
in the last month to help a friend move,
but then it didn't work out.

After that, i've been back and forth
to new jersey and new york..

anyways, the job situation is still in a holding
pattern.. but that can only go on so long before
i'm ready to move on..

but wait! my friend is still here! i'll have to leave her!

we're still meeting, and hanging out..
in fact we have a few more photoshoots planned..

at least i have that to look forward to..
we'll see how it goes..

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[stimpee]

Keep it up!

[negative1]

thanks stimpee,

well summer is in full swing here
on the east coast..

so we went back to the rose park
that we were at in april..

only took a small set this time..
but got some nice portraits:
http://img580.imageshack.us/img580/7572/img5333cs.jpg


link to the flickr set is here:
---------------------------------------
http://www.borndirty.org/forums/showpost.php?p=151212&postcount=145


next up swimsuit shots near a
scenic reservoir... yow!!

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[negative1]

met a new girl.
oh wait... looks familiar..
===

oh
http://img716.imageshack.us/img716/7724/image5942rcs.jpg

my
http://img269.imageshack.us/img269/5324/image5984rcsmod2.jpg

goodness!
http://img9.imageshack.us/img9/9563/img6054cs2.jpg
http://img3.imageshack.us/img3/1020/img6011rcmods.jpg

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[bryantm3]

glad you found her again!

[negative1]

glad you found her again!

actually, it's the same girl as the other
pictures above!

i suggested a blonde wig,
and a pinup lingerie shoot jokingly,
and she went for it!

i'll post a few of the tamer shots
in the process thread.
=================
http://www.borndirty.org/forums/showpost.php?p=151688&postcount=150

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[negative1]

woooo... another shoot coming up today.
an indian theme! will be a lot of fun!

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[negative1]

check out the indian
princess look.. she had a
blast..
=======
http://img249.imageshack.us/img249/3994/img6590crs.jpg

http://img163.imageshack.us/img163/5250/img6601crs.jpg

and so did i!

link to the post with flickr set:
----------
http://www.borndirty.org/forums/showpost.php?p=151844&postcount=153

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[negative1]

well, we celebrated her 22nd...lots of fun..
and we're doing an interview/makeup shoot..

with possibly some 3d fun!

should be interesting day tomorrow...

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[stimpee]

Does this mean you've abandoned Underworld? :)

[negative1]

Does this mean you've abandoned Underworld? :)

haha, killing time until they release more stuff..
i'm still posting a lot in the 'underworld' category
whenever stuff comes up..

nice to have such 'distractions' though!!!!

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[negative1]

here's a shot from
after she showed me
how she puts on makeup..

i'll post a link to other shots
in another thread..
========================
http://img846.imageshack.us/img846/7569/img6843sb.jpg

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[bryantm3]

so— how is your relationship? is it platonic, or more than that?

[Deckard]

aka, are you getting any? :D

[negative1]

so— how is your relationship? is it platonic, or more than that?

slightly trending romantic.

but we're both coming off a serious breakup.
so i'm fine with taking it somewhat slow.

the huge age gap doesn't bother her, but i'm
self conscious of it!

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[negative1]

a preview of pre-christmas day..
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http://img39.imageshack.us/img39/2387/ashcandle01.jpg

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[negative1]

had an awesome time,
putting together more shots..
very cosy, with the candlelights..

check it out:
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http://www.borndirty.org/forums/showpost.php?p=152475&postcount=155

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[negative1]

a new year..
and more shots to take:
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http://img403.imageshack.us/img403/3695/img7117csfix.jpg

maybe more exciting things will happen this year..

new job?

new friends?

new places?

new things?

new life?

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[negative1]

whoah....

pro shot of her:
http://img28.imageshack.us/img28/3175/jan2012facebigs.jpg

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[froopy seal]

Beautiful, athough I'm not a fan of colourful make-up. And that bling is just ridiculously excessive, of course.

[negative1]

i like this one of course..

http://img42.imageshack.us/img42/4062/ashbluebig.jpg

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[negative1]

thanks to karmaloop.. yummy..

http://assets.karmaloop.com/vendor/MNK/zoom/MP1565I-YLWZOOM1.JPG

http://assets.karmaloop.com/vendor/MNK/zoom/MP1565I-YLWZOOM5.JPG

http://assets.karmaloop.com/vendor/MNK/zoom/MP1614I-GRYZOOM1.JPG

http://assets.karmaloop.com/vendor/MNK/zoom/MP1614I-GRYZOOM5.JPG

yow!..

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[Andrea]

Doll face indeed, the legs are so so if you ask me.


Loud Speaker City
Today I woke up with this image in my head. What I remembered the most were the colours and the light, the people and those blocks and something like a church with hugging fish(es) on the top of it. The fish had a distinct fin on the back so I guess it was a bass.
The original has much brighter and vivid colors of course :)

http://andrea.dinstudio.se/files/Loud_Speaker_City.jpg

apropos of another year goes by...

[negative1]

yes andrea, she is a doll! ha ha.. in real life..

thanks to w hotel for these (not by me!)
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http://img841.imageshack.us/img841/3276/4windowdrinkcs.jpg
http://img688.imageshack.us/img688/4934/5lobbycs.jpg
http://img824.imageshack.us/img824/6205/6drinkcs.jpg
http://img696.imageshack.us/img696/374/7dessertcs.jpg
http://img526.imageshack.us/img526/949/8robecs.jpg
http://img844.imageshack.us/img844/1615/9spacs.jpg
http://img69.imageshack.us/img69/4935/10windowc.jpg

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[negative1]

my friend submitted her pictures and
is on a maxim poll!

http://cdn2.maxim.com/maxim/sites/default/files/styles/carousel_main/public/hotties/2013/1626281_ashley_west_hartford_ct_1.jpg

check it out! (and vote if you like!)
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http://www.maxim.com/hometown-hotties/ashley-west-hartford-ct

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[Caprice]

jesus dude

[negative1]

jesus dude

yes? haha.. is that a good thing!?

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[Andrea]

...and my doll is preparing herself for a Carl von Linné party in August in Uppsala/Sweden (Carl Linnaeus - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carl_Linnaeus)

apropos of "another year goes by"....

http://a3.ec-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/141/7fcf2962513a45f7a7a03abc0fae3c66/l.jpg

I just endeavor constantly to better understand life through those who lived it. But I don´t know if I've become wiser.
Small waist, pushed up breast and pouty butt.
Yeah, not much has changed. :D

[negative1]

very nice andrea.

sounds like a fun party.

i'm just going to stay in some downtime
and reemerge yet again..

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[negative1]

well at some point you have to cut your losses
right?

back in texas for a little while now..

maybe things will stabilize... time to
start over (again), and (again)..

will i keep going, maybe, but not in this
form.. time to start all over again. nice
being amonst friends again. but most
have moved on and settled.

i'm still a wandering, roaming spirit..

just a ghost from the past.. and still
living in it apparently.

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[negative1]

well, my friend went to a contest
in vegas for 2012..

she is the 2nd one from the left:
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http://img854.imageshack.us/img854/9418/ashvegastropic01.jpg

some other shots..
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http://img842.imageshack.us/img842/2739/ashtropic56153146492059.jpg
http://img40.imageshack.us/img40/792/ashley95vegastropic3s1.jpg

and an amateur one from me.. from awhile ago.
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http://img833.imageshack.us/img833/9818/img5683rcs.jpg

hard to shoot with such bright overhead sun reflecting over the water.

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[negative1]

my friend did a boudoir shoot, with some nice lingerie..
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http://imageshack.us/a/img22/5015/ctboudoirphotographer01.jpg

http://imageshack.us/a/img837/7451/ctboudoirphotographer00.jpg

http://imageshack.us/a/img202/7451/ctboudoirphotographer00.jpg

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[stimpee]

Another couple of years go by... now what?

[negative1]

Another couple of years go by... now what?

well, i still don't have a job. i've moved away,
and i'm still sorting out my music collection.

and i'm still meeting *ahem* women.

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